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Autobiography:

Name: Magz, formally known as Margretta

Birthday: 1st of june 1989

Star Sign: Gemini

Statue: single, but not available

Current saying: negro please!

Currently annoying rant: how fucked up the education system is by degrading english and making us poor students overanalyze every freakin movie, show, book we watch/read. POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!

Secret: I'm a hopeless romantic ^_^ dispite what I may say or do, I'm a sucker for anything lurvveee. Ssshhhhhh... don't tell anyone!

My Sunshines

My Anh <3
Monica <3
Amanda <3
Michelle <3
Wendy <3
Aqueedah <3

Things That Make You Go MmMmMm... (aka interests)

* Writing - Its where I write things I probably wouldn't do or say... ah, who am I kidding? LoLz! Its just where I flex and stretch my talent

* Drawing (though really shit at it, but I can have dreams!)

* Shopping - Its a sport on its own, and very theraputic. You can NEVER have too many accessories! Can I get a hell yeah?

* Playing Pool - I'm actually really good at it. Not to beep my own horn... but... BEEP BEEP! LoLz

* Gossiping and Bitching - Theres nothing like a good gossip session and bitchfest with good friends. Its how girls bond, I advice everyone do it.

* Love Songs - I LOVE love songs. The emotion, the lyrics, the meaning. Ahhh... Its beautiful!

* Spending Time Alone - I know that makes me sound like a hermit, but spending time with yourself is the best! especially because I'm such good company! ^_^

Bold as Love

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Friday, March 18, 2005

heyz all!

well its been another hectic, weird ass, full of shit, tiring, nostalgic day! think of how the week went? lolz i didnt go school today cos i had assignments to do, yes i know ur all rolling ur eyes or something like that but it was for extension english and art and we all know how much i love those subjects. i sooo didnt want to go school today cos yesterday was shit so i dont thinnk today was going to be any better, but then again, tomorrow is another day.

i seriously cant stand school anymore. seriously, i cant stand it! the people there (well, most of them) are shallow and narrow minded. like i was talking to bino (aka albino aka nathan ^^) n i was telling him how people in william carey are really open minded about the political and religious issues but when it comes to the little things like racism, sex before marriage (yes i know, its fucking ridiculous -pun intended!) and even something like individualism and they are so shallow, or how bino puts it, sheltered. i totally have to agree with that. they think that they are individuals because they are able to voice their opinions about 'relevent' issues and no one will think anything of it but let me tell u something, just because u voice your opinion doesnt give u the right to shove it down my throat and it certainly doesnt give u the right to judge others. i was talking to Ayla before and i told her in the school its like i'm dandilion in a field full of roses and she's like, "i dont know what dandilions are! say your a tulip, i know what a tulip is." lolz so then i go its like i'm a tulip in a garden full of roses in this school.

like i can honestly say, this is the only school where they have used the words 'black' to refer to me more times then i can count. like i dont mind, seriously but they use it as if they know me, as if its a defense mechanism for them. and then they have the audacity to ask me if i'm ok with it. of course i'm not ok with it, but even if i was they are too shrouded in their self rightoeus state of mind to notice. i cant do this anymore. i cant go to a school where i feel like i'm nothing but a name. i want to tell someone but i doubt anyone, besides ayla (yay i spelt it right!hehe), would understand. and i really want to tell someone but how do u explain something that u dont understand yourself? and if u know me, u know that i love talking over things and anaylsing the issue? but i cant now, i dont even know why i feel how i feel inside.

its like as if u've always lived in snow- like antartica right? you've seen the sun, but only from a distance, like you've never felt it on your skin, in your face, that sort of thing (lolz i know this sounds like i'm albino!) and then WHAM you wake up one morning and your in the sahara desert in like fucking 70 degrees outside. if i said that was a enormous change that would be an understatement. thats how i feel like when i go to school, so out of place. i'm there but i'm not. and i've made some really good fwends like casey (my american biatch), raymond and of course, maggs (my corny lines buddy - "embrace the corniness magz" lolz).

i havent told any of them though, they're on science camp. aww i havent heard from any of them in a while. i missss them! hehehe. now i'm feeling sad... ahh welllz. i'll but alright i guess. i have to be, theres so much more for me to do. i guess i gotta take things one painful step at a time and though cigarettes may dull the pain, i'm already numb.

i havent told u about maggs have i? ehehehe wellz... he;s a great guy. hehehe he's name is david maggs but they call him maggs like me! its fate i tell u, a sign from God. hehehe, he's my fwend sian's bro. lolz we're close, its weird cos like i've had close guy fwends before and all but this is different. like theres a level of maturity there, like old buddies. and the fact that he's hot doesnt hurt either. like he's a person i look up to, but i'd bone him if i could ^_~. he is one of the reasons i like school lolz.

u rememeber tom? Mr-it-but-is-now-formally-known-as-formally-Mr-it? yeah well... hehehehe he's different now. lolz like he's mysterious, its a major turn on, i can tell u that. lik he's always dissappearing and having to go to the office and walking around jst thinking. like he's deep in thought alot. its totally hot! but like i dont like him, and yes it is because he isnt a blonde. hehehe i wanna find out what his deal is, so i asked maggs to ask for me, hehe did i tell u he's a great guy? lolz but yeah, Mr-formally-known-as-Mr-it is now Mr-formally-known-as-Mr-formally-known-as-Mr-it-but-is-now-Mr-mysterious-formally-known-as-Mr-it aka tom. lolz! i just want to know what his deal is and then i'll forget all about him. maggs thinks i'll end up liking tom again, but i dont think so. its jst the thrill of the chase, and nothing else. i dont want to know him. i jst want to know about him. i jst want. pure and simple.

Monica, my punk princess is leaving tomorrow *cries!!* i'm sooooo gonna miss her! monica if ur reading this, thank you for everything and i'm wishing you nothing but good wishes and when u meet someone u connect with and u two get alittle frisky... hehehe i want DETAILS!!! lolz
You are going to leave a void in all our hearts that no one can replace. we dont know why things happen, and we try to understand them so that we have a reason for feeling the way we do, but tomorrow, no one has a reason. people come and go, loves are found and lost but let me tell u something monica, once your in someone heart, ur in for the long run. when u gotta go, you gotta go, all we can do is make your last moments in australia for the time being a little more memoriable for you.

you and a counsellor, a friend, a mediator, a sister, an angel, a princess but most of all, you are monica hara. casula's bestest chick, with the multicoloured toe socks lolz. geez, now i'm crying! hehee i'm going to miss you, but i want you to remember this: just because the curtains have closed does not mean the show is over, its when you bow, that you leave the crowd. And u my little punk princess, have not bowed yet.

hehehe well i've got a song, yet again! its called Moon River. and yes, it is an old song, but i prefer to call it classic(u really have to hear the music to get a feel for the song). its dedicated to monica.

Moon river, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you're goin', i'm goin' your way

Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end, waitin' 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me

(moon river, wider than a mile)
(i'm crossin' you in style some day)

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you're goin', i'm goin' your way
Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after that same rainbow's end, waitin' 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me

(moon river, moon river)

but anyway, i've been rabbling on again. love u all!!

nuff said.

MaGz...

MaGz [ 5:23 pm ]

1 Comments:

Hey Magz reading ur post frm March 18th the day before i left the country, reading your thoughts is heart-wrenching. I didn't get 2 say a proper good bye 2 u, but i know that 'the show is not over yet'. Even with communication problems over here we can keep our friendship going. I just did my I.q exam 2day ahhh glad its ova but u kno me stressing bout d results, dis weekend we r going 2 another island 2 visit sum relatives but hopefully next week i can talk 2 u!!
Love u and Miss u heaps gossip queen!!!!
From Monzi
P.s Last week went with my cousins 2 a karaeoke bar and wat a freaky coincidence, i didn't even read ur post and yet i sand 'Moon river'.
Enjoy ur two week break! i knoe ur aching 4 tym 2 relax and fun the ghetto style.
Okies gonna reeli go now! xoxoxoxox

By Anonymous, at 7:40 pm